right now there is so much in my life. autumn freaks me out in so many ways. and getting older freaks me out in even more ways. with the start of september (which is the month of my birthday) i start to get crazy. this crazyness lasts all winter long. november and december are always the peak because everything is so hectic and loud and there is so much all around. that's why i love christmas, even if i don't want to love it... because it gets so calm. and after christmas light comes back and things start to turn back into the way i love them.
sometimes i feel i run through life with a heart so wide open it starts to hurt. and it starts to get overwhelmed with emotion.